Naomi
Last week, I talked very briefly about the private diary I’ve been writing since I was 13. We’ve been talking about journals on the Rookie Tumblr, too, so I thought: why not show a little tiny peek into mine?
This is an example from late at night, the gap between waking and sleeping. It’s a limbo that I quite enjoy falling into. Feelings can be quite intense then and that’s nice, except you can’t really do anything with them, because your mind is like, “I need to go to sleep!” I don’t know how to keep these moments from slipping through my fingers.
When I woke up the next morning, I wondered whether I had actually dreamed it. My head was full of city lights and lace exhibitions and daffodils and pavements and train journeys and photos and my auntie’s house in London and all of the things that I think I deserve to do. Sometimes, I still have a childlike wonder for all these things I actually can do. ♦
Katherine- that was so beautiful and so honest. It’s exactly how I feel about high school too.
Log in to replyRuby, Holla at another Rookie veggie!
Log in to replyOne day when I stop being lame, I will submit a post about being vegan (except for really good pizza). Mainly because the world NEEDS to know this vegan shepherds pie recipe.
Ruby! You are me. *creepiness*
Log in to replyDylan – That is me all the time. I say “Oh yeah, we should meet up this weekend” and then I never actually do. Somehow I wind up on Sunday with a pile of homework and I haven’t gone outside my house.
Log in to replyHey rookie! sorry I accidentally posted a comment with nothing in it! (didn’t mean to hahaha)
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I LOVE this weeks diary! w00t w00t vegetarian power… UNITE!
Log in to replyI”m from Seattle, I’m still here and I TOTALLY understand about the weather Dylan!
Log in to replyMinna, that apple dress is KILLER. WHERE IS THAT FROM?
Log in to replyOh golly!! I found this picture in a 1976 German magazine.. I also found a pic of a bed with like vinyl cherries as the bed head. I died. So to be honest the dress probably isn’t on the market anymore.. If you search on ebay for like 50s fruit dresses or cherry dresses or something you never know what you’ll find though! :) :) :) tutti frutti!
Log in to replyI have 5 months left of high school too and the same feelings are starting to hit me. I simultaneously feel too old and mature for high school and too young for college. Crapppp. I just want out of school
Log in to replyKatherine your diary today was truly beautiful. So honest. The part where you talked about the boy who killed himself and how you can know people in little ways. How he once told you you were funny.
Log in to replydoh i’m moving to seattle later this year, this doesn’t inspire much enthusiasm dylan! although saying that, you’re comparing it to san francisco’s weather, whereas i’m coming from scotland…it’ll feel like hawaii to me!
Log in to replySeattle is a gem. I love it so much. But the winter just sucks…but I guarantee you, not as much as Scotland!!
Log in to replyNaomi, that diary entry is beautiful – it reads like poetry.
I can relate, in a way. I’m about to enter my last year of high school and I’m basically scared shitless at the possibility before me: to succeed, or to just totally bomb out. There’s so much potential in my life right now. Theoretically, I can do anything, and it’s terrifying.
I love reading your entries every week.
also: kjdhfgkjdfhg BON IVER
Log in to replyesdrftyghuiuyt BON IVER!!! (we have the same reaction to bon iver)
Log in to replyit’s the only proper reaction, let’s be real
Log in to replyAhhh I agree with all of this! You are my favorite rookie writer, naomi. Your entry is just inspiring.
Log in to replyAnd I feel the same way about bon iver!!! I swear half my diary is “BON IVER IS SPECTACULAR FANTASTIC MAGICAL AMAZING”
omg i love you
Log in to replyI can relate to this so much. I ate fairly normal until I turned about four or five, then I decided no more meat, no more veggies, little to no fruit, no eggs, basically nothing but grain and dairy products. I keep finding articles online and Anderson Cooper did an episode on his show about extremely picky eaters. I like feeling less alone. Maybe someday I’ll try to “fix” my eating habits, but it’s not any easy task when you’ve been used to it your whole life.
Log in to replyI’m generally not a picky eater, but I cannot stand some things [mushrooms, foie gras, cheese [only melted cheese is okay], abalone, shell fish [like mussels and clams and oysters], shrimp that still have the head on them [gawd, it's gross], organs [like kidneys and liver], celery, fennel and bird’s nest, to name a few).
Especially not bird’s nest; it’s this chinese delicacy made of bird saliva… I’m serious, bird saliva. And the worst thing is, I once ate it without knowing what it was, gah.
Log in to replyKatherine, that was beautiful.
Log in to replyOMG so happy to find a veggie rookie like me. I’m lacto-vegan tho…
Log in to replyoh dylan i totally feel you on seattle winter hell. the constant grey is just so exhausting, having to leave my bedroom for more than a couple of hours becomes quite the ordeal. still, i love this city terribly.
Log in to replyalso, wow katherine and naomi’s diaries were so beautiful this week.
Katherine, your post on high school is so great and relatable. I’m also a high school senior, and I also both love and hate high school right now- hate it because it’s so predictable and frustrating, but love it because it’s what I know and I am lightyears away from being ready for college.
Log in to replyKatherine, I loved your diary post, especially the part about sitting with someone silently at lunch. I think there is such a thing as unawkward silence… sometimes its just nice to eat lunch, you know?
Log in to replyOkay so… I am a vegetarian,who eats fish. I wanna be a vegan but I don’t know how I could eat anything!! Where I live,there is absolutely no vegan restraunts or stores in sight! My cousin is a vegan, but she has a lot of health problems that i think I would get if I became a vegan. Help!
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