Britney
I know that I’m pretty late with this, but I have been thinking about my resolutions, and how I want this year to go. I’m going to high school in September, which is what I’m worried about the most. Will I find people who share my views, who like the same things, and who will completely accept me? I don’t know, but I can hope.
I guess I’m content with my resolutions. I mean, I should be—they fill up about two pages. Most of them are basic: join a volleyball team, start a grunge band, start a zine, etc. But there are also complicated ones: become more self-confident, write a screenplay. Most difficult of all is this: now that you have discovered who you are, act on it. I finally know who I am—I didn’t realize it in one life-shattering epiphany, like the ends of the universe finally being tied together, but gradually, through different experiences, conversations, books, and music. I know, but how do I truly express it? Through my clothes? My choice of words? What I write here? I have about 300 days to figure this out, which is both a blessing and a curse. ♦
Oh, Nandi I’m so sorry. Your diaries are consistently my favorite, and I relate so much to everything you post. Ugh, girl I just feel everything you feel, especially with this one- it’s the absolute worst when you comfort people and they don’t even try to help you. I just want to give you a hug and tell you it’ll all be better eventually
Log in to replyNandi. Let’s be friend because I’n 100% sure you’re my spirit animal
Log in to replycaitlin, god, that just pretty much sums up everything right now perfectly.
katherine, though i adore amusement parks, i totally get what you mean about the first week of school. it’s just downhill from there.
ruby, i don’t blame you. if i could, i’d probably never leave my room.
nandi, i hope you feel better. you’re totally (strong) and hilarious, but even the strongest deserve someone to lean on.
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Log in to replyOh Nandi </3
Log in to replyI can completely relate… my whole month of December was spent either: 1) helping my friends (and people I barely knew) deal with their problems and 2) leaving class to cry in the bathroom, going home at night to cry… and pretty much breaking down all the time to have my friends pull the whole "well MY day was WAY worse"…
BUT on the positive side, it should only get better from here <3 From what it sounds like, you've hit rock-bottom and things should get better, I swear!
Leigh, thank you very much. Sending you positive vibes for the rest of this month. I hope it holds you in all the right places. X
Log in to replyRuby, I just want to give you a hug
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Log in to replyCaitlin, I love your drawings soooo much! wonderful!
Log in to replyI like reading Diaries because they explain character and mood of owners. I wait for every Wednesday because Rookie publish Diaries! Thank you!
Britney–for your screenplay resolution, you should participate in Script Frenzy in April!
Log in to replyhttp://www.scriptfrenzy.org/eng/whatisscriptfrenzy
I can relate to you, Ruby. x
Log in to replyI’m so happy for you, Naomi! xxx
Log in to replyI love your illustration this week, Caitlin. Also, I am feeling both Ruby and Nandi. <3
Log in to replyKatherine, that teacher sounds absolutely disgusting, if I were the exchange student I’d get really offended! And I’m already offended at the “feminism” and “gender theory”. Ugh, I’d call her out on her bullshit IMMEDIATELY. Like “listen, mrs whatever, what’s your problem? Gender theory isn’t a joke, but you sure are.”
I guess I have a big mouth.
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Log in to replyKatherine’s brother sounds like a really cool dude
Log in to replyNandi oh my god I’m pretty sure you tore a page out of my diary. I hope you find someone who listens to you soon <3
Log in to replyOh but I already have! (All of you) <3
Log in to replyNaomi, I love every diary entry of yours so much it hurts. Glad to hear you’ve had such a beautiful and vivid dream! I grew obsessed with dreams as I discovered what lucid dreams are – in them you can directly speak to your subconscious if you suddendly get aware of the fact you are actually sleeping. That’s pretty much having your soul telling you why your head is filled with chaos.
Log in to replyI feel the same about Naomi’s writing; it’s so real to me. What have you experienced with lucid dreaming? I’ve always loved the idea, but my dreams take me away; I’ve never been able to take them
Log in to replyNandi I can so relatex
Log in to replyMy best friend of 4 years was depressed the past year I was really there for her and then in September when I finally realised I’d been dealing with depression she wouldn’t help me. She’s just blocked me out; hang on in there the real friends give and take. It took me a long time to realise that much lovex
I am so sorry to hear that. And you are absolutely right, the real ones come around soon enough!
Log in to replyNaomi, Katherine, Ruby, Britney, Nandi- I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Log in to replyi love you more AS YOU WELL KNOW
Log in to replyI LOVE YOU TOO BOLLYWOODKECKS gahtdammit.
Log in to replyI just want to follow you all around with a sign that says “YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU CAN DO IT!!”
Log in to replyCaitlin that’s exactly how i feel during exams…Good luck!!!
Also…WANTED: Someone to simultaneously pee myself with due to an excess of snuggling. just saying…
Log in to replyNandi. Please, take it from someone who’s being there. Being a good friend does not mean giving until you do not have anything to give, and then giving some more. I personally find that the other side of the coin to giving unconditionally (which is admirable of you, by the way) is that people who take unconditionally will be attracted to you, like moths to fire.
Now, I know you love your friends, but like in every relationship, it is important to set boundaries, you know what I mean? I hope you can find a way to balance the giving and taking in your personal life.
Log in to replyomg Ruby, i totally understand. i feel the same way right now.
Log in to replyI have had the exactly same situation on my hands recently. My best friend broke up with her boyfriend, who she’d been with for 4 years, but they still talk every night etc. So it’s not ending, and I’ve recently gone back into severe depression so the idea that I’ll never be happy, she’ll never get over him and be happy, and that the situation may be something to cope with for a long time…IS STRESSFUL.
Log in to replyShe’s my bestest friend in the whole universe but I wish she’d listen to my advice for once, I am a little older and maybe wiser? xxx thanks for writing this