Have you ever gotten the feeling that you’ll be alone forever? I’ve felt that way for the past few days. I don’t necessarily mean alone relationship-wise. It’s just…sometimes I feel like I’m the only person who actually understands me. When I find someone who I think might get what I’m saying, it turns out they don’t, and then I’m disappointed and feel lonelier than ever. I have so much to say, but I can’t, because when I do, it’s usually better if I hadn’t. People say that school is like this, but it’s not just school—it’s the real world as well. I can’t even count the number of times I’ve told an adult about an idea or a problem I was having, and they just missed the point. For example, I was getting harassed by some people in math class earlier this week. An instructor of another class noticed my mood and asked me what was wrong, and when I told them about the harassment, they said, “Well, maybe it’s because your personality is so dark?” I felt so betrayed.
I honestly feel hopeless. I feel like a supergiant that’s about to become a supernova. I’m not happy at all. ♦